I'm Almost Relieved ...... Almost
Whilst I'm absolutely devastated about the manner in which we ballsed up our title challenge, not to mention the fact that we lost to Spurs for the first time in 3 million years, I have to say I'm somewhat relieved.
Game after game, year after year, the longer the unbeaten run went on the harder these derby days became to stomach, to the point at which I no longer enjoy the matches, the mere thought of them make me feel physically sick.
I thought Tottenham were there for the taking tonight, they looked absolutely knackered after a punishing 120 minutes on a shitty Wembley pitch, we ran them ragged for a majority of the game, yet thanks to a wonder goal, brilliant defensive display and some epic stamina to battle through another 90 minutes they emerged victorious. They were more than deserving of their victory.
It's something akin to watching your beloved pet die, you know it's coming, and you know it's going to be painful, but part of you is just thankful that it's over.
So through gritted teeth and with a heavy heart, congratulations to Spurs for finally getting the win, we'll see you again next season.
Now I'm off to bury my head under a pillow and wait for it all to blow over.